One of my mantras walking through my life is Byron Katie's inspired "love what is". I do my best to love what is whether it is feeling sad because of missing something or someone, being annoyed because something doesn't fit me or frightened by the question "will my kids be as happy" or worrying "who am I without my work" or just absolutely happy when biking and walking outside smelling pine trees; the last emotion for me being easier to love than the others.
And of course I am not always able to embrace and love what is right away: e.g. when I realized that the time I have with my husband on weekdays is 1 hour per day and that during that hour he is pretty tired and done with his day. My first thought is: "did I give up the most awesome life for one mindless hour a day with him?" Amazingly after realizing and talking about it with him I was fine with it. Maybe loving is a too big of a word, but I really am fine with it now! Totally. I love the mindless hour a day with him. And I love the mindful and resourceful times in the weekend even more!!! Socrates' idea that all learning is remembering resonates a lot with me. What I remembered is that inquiring my thoughts, seeking for (my) truths, sorting it out helps me to deal with it! And even love it...
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